Who I am...

Twenty one years ago on a tiny, tiny isle,
Was born to my family a small baby child...
This child would grow to be a simple man,
A man of this world, A man of this land...
This child for many a year would live on his own,
Reflecting who he was, making his personality known...
A mouth of venom, full of untruth,
And of his words few would soothe...
To him all of life was a joke,
To other's they believed Christ's yoke he had forsook ...
A man ungentle in all his ways,
Uncouth and uncaring and forever would he stay.
But for the Spirit that resides in his heart,
That forever of God, he would have a part...
And so may the Spirit within,
Slowly cleanse till he is clean...
That a gentle heart he may possess,
And in his Father's arms he may rest...
A mouth that holds the truth and that alone,
That he would know he speaks before Christ's throne...
And so he gives his all again,
To let his Lord make him a new man...


Lord...

I pray again.. For your all to wash over me... May I be your child and that alone... May you control my wild tongue... And myself too oh Lord... May you calm and lead me... That I would be gentle in all my ways... For in these areas t'is too hard for me to change... But by your strength I know that I can... For inside resides an overpowering desire in these areas...

In Christ most precious name I pray....
Amen...

Who am I???

Who am I?
Naught but a sinner oft unrepentant.
Who am I?
A man who cannot be independant.
Who am I?
A man who sins again and again.
Who am I?
A failure the Law of God condemns.
Who am I?
A man weak in his ability.
Who am I?
That you should die for me?
BUT Who am I?
I AM YOURS!!! From now till forevermore.
But Who am I?
A man who with you will soar.

I Am Yours... I am Yours...

Lord... May I alwayts remember that I am yours... And nothing more... My life dedicated to you forever more... I Love YOU... Let nothing come in between me and you... PLEASE!!!

I LOVE YOU LORD... And I dedicate my life to you...
Amen...

Surrender ALL

Is there anything in this galaxy that with my Lord shall stand?
Of all things created, by God or by man...
For if truly, if in this world, there be such a thing,
Then my life be so far worthless, for my trust has been placed in Him.
All I have gambled, this world I have forsaken,
And now I live by faith, my heart to my God broken.
For there is nothing which on this world shall count,
When eternity in the end shall come around.
And so from this day forth I shall live for no other,
My life, my ALL given to my Father.
No earthly love, no thing, no beauty here on earth,
Shalt ever again sway me from the realness of His love.
And if there be something that which I hold,
My God, My God, Please wrench it from my soul.

Lord, though at times I may not seem to want to put everything in your hands, hear my cry as i pray that you will do all you can to wrench anything that may even fog my vision of you from my soul. Sometimes I do not know if somethingsa are truly placed into your hands, but Lord, I have faith that these things you will helkp me clear up... My emotion sometimes clogs up my thoughts and how i feel, but Lord, help me always to do your will... And so once again, i pray... Wrench my all from my habds and help me turn everything over to you... Please... I trust in you and you alone... No humna love, no earthly thing ca gain my trust, therefore they are all yours... My money, my all...

Help me please,
In Christ most precious name i pray,
Amen.

In HIS Time

I stop in anticipation andf beseech my Lord for a gift,
Not knowing what i ask for will create between us a rift.
When the gift is not becoming I shake my head and cry,
Then I hear a voice within me, "(Insert name), Don't you wonder why?
For nothing happens outside the will of God,
Did you not pray before to be washed in the cleansing flood?"
I searched my heart and I searched my soul,
And thereupon I saw in me an all encompassing hole.
And finally I saw what from creation God had seen,
I realised that what I wanted should never have been.
And I thank God for his beauteous plan for me,
And I realised it has been there, even though I could not see.
And All things shall come to pass in the light of his glory and grace,
And so shall I realise on the day I see his face.

Lord it is always so hard to know your will for me... Please Lord, help me know that will of yours... Or at least let me wait in graceful anticipation. Never overstepping your boundaries nor being full of pride. You know that in my heart I desire that ONE thing... But I offer it up to you that you may do as you will... Please... If I get it, PRAISE God, if not, PRAISE God... I sincerely pray that I do get it, but not as I will, but as you will...

Amen...

True Beauty

T'is a man of no standing, that judges by the face,
For in his heart, character, does not have a place.
T'is a shallow man, who sees beauty in the external,
For his eyes cannot see what truly is eternal.
Yet this world in all its travails,
Let's man of such standing in this world prevail.
To seek the approval in such worthless things,
Has become man's goal, that to this world shall he sing.
But Lord, the God, sees the heart of all,
And we would do well to heed that call.
To a beauty within, so precious, so fine,
That none can take away for it is God's, not mine.
And I trust in such beauty that will shine for all to see,
When I meet my maker and live with him eternally...

LORD!!!... Help me to put less and less stress on the external and see the POTENTIAL beuaty of ALL... For all are made in your image and thus shall it be... May you guide me in my search for an inner beauty that if the world may not see YOU will bless... And that is all I care for... Please help me LORD!!! I truly wish to seek you and you alone... I love you Lord, for your beauty is as such...

Amen...

All My Pain Is His

I sit and walk alone, a-hampered by my thoughts,
Thoughts of pain and liooneliness, so deep, no healing balm could be bought.
I cry out, 'Oh Father, please take away the pain!'
I hear a still soft whisper '(Insert name), I went through the same!
For is there was no pain in your sacrifice,
Never in my Father's eyes would it suffice.
So trust in Me and bear your cross,
And I will be there when you need me the most.
And may the pain yu feel inside,
Be an everlasting reminder that in you I abide...'

'Though my heart may not desire the pain, Refine me Oh Lord and bring me through your flame...'
Selah Oh Lord of Lords...

Lord... Sometimes the pain in this world seems way more than I can bear.. Please, Help Me... I know that through this pain may I grow in strength and faith and because of this knowledge and trust that I have in you I can last through it all... For my eyes, may they be fixed only upon eternity such that all other things may fade and never rise beyond their importance... Grant me the strength to live through the trials you bring... And may you NEVER stop refining me till the day that I die, no matter the pain... For all I pray is that on that day of glory when all the saints stand before you I shall hear the greatest praise in the world for me... 'Thou art good and faithful servant'... And this world will fade away in importance in the light of your glory and grace... thank you Lord... Thus I pray in the name of your son... Amen...

Prayer...

PRAYER (Its Purpose)

I stand speechless and naked before my awesome King,
No words have I to say nor songs have I to sing.
My heart stands a burdened by the weight of the world,
When all I needed was to ask His peace unfurl.
For once before had I forsaken this thing called prayer,
Because t’is not what I sought I thought God wasn’t there.
The call to be a slave that would never see the promised land,
Deep down in my heart, I could never understand.
Till one day I realized what would make me whole,
Not changes to what surrounds, but that I bear to God my soul.
With words I know, I shalt never master prayer, this art,
Yet I know the Spirit of Christ reveals to God my heart.
And so this world though it changeth not,
The peace that reigns within is what, I should from the start have sought…

Sometimes we pray to see the world change... And when it does not change before our eyes we grow disheartened... Oh Lord... Grant me the perseverance of the nine genrations of Isrealites in Egypt.. That I may be able to pray for nine genrations for the salvation of the people and stay strong though i may never see the promised land myself...

Give me a heart of Prayer...

First Few Entries of my OLD blog...

Starting to write again... Moved some of my first few posts over from my old blog...

Wednesday, March 10, 2004
The Morrow

I look upon the morrow of trials yet to come,
Of sufferings yet untold, and of love remaining forlorn.
World weary still I plod upon this narrow path.
Simply just because I fear my God’s wrath.
But the grace of God so strong, so true,
Ensured that not only wrath was shown to you.
For the morrow rests in hands of love so great,
That even the enemy may not intrude, nay, not even in all his hate.

Today's entry is quite short...
Well... My future lies in you oh Lord... I love you Lord and I dedicate everything to you once again!!!
Even though the future looks sooo hazy I can still love you because I know that you know the future...
And in that future I am showered with your love...

posted by S.Mel # 7:58 AM
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
When Thing Fail

I picked up the cross and took a step along the narrow path,
But soon I fell down and the world began to laugh.
I turned in anger and rage towards Jesus, my King,
and asked, " Oh Lord, Why did you let me fall down again?
Is it so hard even when I want to serve you with all my strength?
Why is it to make me fall down you would go to any length?"
And in my despair I forgot all the things that surround,
Then I realised I was being carried by someone wearing a crown.
And the words he said put my heart to shame,
"Did you my child say that you never wanted to be the same?
For if you did not fall down how could I pick you up?
For that is my promise on the day that my blood you supped.
That I will send my spirit and in you it will sanctify,
That I will know your longings by your simple sigh.
So trust in me and believe that there is nothing not in my plan,
And give up your all, live moment to moment, for on me can you depend.


Sometimes, we feel that the entire world has fallen around us... Well I got news for you, it HAS!!!... Its just that none christians and christians with no passion for God seldom feel it... And well wadda you know.. jesus is carrying all those who allow him to... Never think that you alone can cross the void of the earth by yourself.. but draw your strength from God... Just as Jesus labelled the walk "the narrow path"... It is soooo narrow that it is impossible to walk across no matter how good we are, except when Christ aids you...


posted by S.Mel # 6:37 AM
Sunday, March 07, 2004
The Knocking of Jesus

As each day doth pass upon this earthly world, I hear a cry within,
A cry of passion, so primal, strong, how could I but give way to sin?
For emotions in love doth a soulish man make,
All logic, all rationale, do I forsake.
Hope and despair rush rampant through,
The latter, of course, the much stronger of the two.
And in my desolation, I hear a call, a knock…
It is my Lord Jesus recalling his flock.
And I throw not away all my desires of this earth,
But rather I offer them to him who knows their worth.
He wrenches my desires from my sweating, clutching hands,
Because he is Jesus and therefore he understands.
Empty then am I, as I wail for what’s in store…
And for a 2nd time, I hear that miraculous knocking on my heart’s door.
Despair to loneliness then to joy one round,
I thank you my Jesus for in you my Joy abounds.

I thank you Lord... That you died for me... And I thank you Lord that no matter how far I stray you are there knocking on my heart's door... I open my heart now and let the floodgates of your love rush into my soul... Thank you Lord... I can do naught but meditate upon this love that you have given me... I shall never be able to pay you back... My life is yours forever...

I love YOU LORD!!!!


posted by S.Mel # 8:13 AM
Friday, March 05, 2004
True Love

I thought I knew true love when I was a child,
The love a mother brought me no matter that I was wild.
I thought I knew true love when I was a youth,
Love of infatuation that did not hold any truth.
I thought I knew true love when I entered the army,
A love as shallow as before but blind I could not see.
I thought I knew true love when I grew into an adult,
But once again I was cheated and in my heart was left a tumult.
And I pondered upon the question “Was true love out there to find?”
Now I look back in shame and wonder how I could be so blind.
For love had carried me through, through all the stages of my life,
Form child to present, it had seen me through my strife.
It came not from woman in whom I had searched in vain,
But it came from My Father, a love that covered my pain.
For even that I may stand testifies of its glory,
And through every stage in my life, may the world and I see its story.
And now I revel in this love so great so pure,
And I know that from the “love” I once sought, this love is the cure!


This is for all the people who have sought love in the world... those who feel they badly need the love of others... And a need for a wife/husband... Well... Jesus is all the love you need... No one else... Love GOD... and nothing else...
For all the people who are desperately looking for a partner... look upwards and there you will see all the love that you need... For the love of this earth is only a signpost that points us to the greater love of God... For no love on earth is capable of quenching our thirst... only the love of God....

posted by S.Mel # 10:07 PM


posted by S.Mel # 10:06 PM
... Well... Wadda you know?... A new blog...
Well gonna use decided painful poetry to muse about things in the perspective of God...

JOY

I have sought joy from the beginning when I was just born,
I made it my life commitment to make its wonders shown.
I let the world lead me in what was to be a fruitless search,
And when I reached what I though was joy, it left me in the lurch.
For in my desire I had turned blind,
Joy in little things I could not find.
And then my Lord opened my heart's eye,
That joy be with me till I die.

Oh joy, oh Lord for the sounds that pervade my ear,
That I may hear nature ring and to my eyes bring a tear.
Oh joy for tears that the pain ion me brings,
For you use that to mould me and for that I will sing.
Oh joy to the heavens for unfulfilled love,
Its a reminder that only you can fill me and that you shall I serve.
Oh joy, oh Lord, for my body broken and weak,
It makes me remember that for you must I seek.
Oh joy, oh Lord, for disappointments on earth,
For it just magnifies how much you are worth.
Oh joy, oh Lord, for betrayals of trust,
So that for this world, may I not lust.
Oh joy, oh Lord, for people better than I,
It reminds me that I am weak and for me you had to die...

Thank You Lord...

Wrote this poem in reflection that we should not only thank Lord for the small things in life... But also EVERY thing... Inclusive of what the world has deemed as unpleasant...

posted by S.Mel # 2:18 AM